Drinking Tea and Smoking Cigarettes..

Four months.. Seriously that is lax even by my own half arsed standards. I could say my life has been non stop and full of exciting adventures, alas that's not really the case. It's been full of tea, cigarettes and beer.. Um, oh and work. Had been thinking about blogging the installation of a lift from start to finish, not quite so sure how interesting that would be though. Maybe I will on the next quiet site, else people will think I'm odd taking photos all the time.

On a relationship note, still no movement and I wonder what people really want. I thought I was indecisive, so I fill my time with pointless distractions, namely beer, beats and work.

I realized recently how cyclic life is, and the different cycles in life that tend to act as neat divisions in this book of life, from the most recent four month cycle, to the end of a ten year cycle which seemed to start and end in a similar place, geographically and mentally. Maybe this is a reason for deja vu. It's just the symphony of existence playing out, is this why we all seem to be hooked on rhythm?

Found a few old pads with half written stories and notes in them whilst decorating so I may type them up and post them, along with a few beats and pieces I've been playing around with..

I will try harder to keep posting, maybe I need to get into a state of mind to do at-least one a week, I really have no excuse.

Gonna start adding a few pics as-well, this is from a pad of mine, need to get my scanner back as some point, this was taken with my phone.

Part 2

There was going to be a follow up to my last post, but it seems to have disappeared into the ether, along with any resolution to a difficult situation. So where do I go from here? Seems the only way to go is up. I need to work on my focus, so until I'm on my way out of this self inflicted purgatory...

That seems harsh, it's not entirely self inflicted, but I can't blame anybody else for my situation. I should've listened to my instincts quite a while ago, they are seldom wrong, but I can lack confidence in them. Things can get a little twisted from time to time, especially when you have a tendency to over analyze any actions. So the first lesson learned is trust your instincts, don't let anybody tell you other wise because that way madness lies.

I'm generally suffering because I lack foresight, I am of the moment, but the moment is already in the past by the time the brain as processed it, so am I of the past??

Aren't we all?

I am craigs reason for catching the bus!!

I haven't slept probably in what seems an age, needless to say my nerves are more than a little frayed. Drinking too much and sleeping too little will generally do that to a man though!! So I am sat on the bus going from Preston to Bolton, going all the way! I have a habit of taking the difficult option when I'm in a mood like this. It's not as though I need anymore time to think, I don't appear to be resolving a damn thing, but there is something refreshing about taking a long journey on a bus. At least when sober and on a fresh, bright day. I would feel good if I wasn't so tired, at least I'm not talking to ghosts yet!!


-- Post From My iPhone

Away...

I like working away, a chance to see other parts of the country. Staying at a Premier Inn doesn't really lend itself to the sense of adventure though, I don't have the time to sit back and sight see. I come to do a job, then get home before the missus totally flips her wig!! Still I've seen quite a bit of this green and pleasent land of ours, reports of our decline have been greatly exagerated!!
I think we need to start loving our country again, maybe loving our selves first, and then our neighbours.. The whole damn world really, course there's shit every where, but there is beauty aswell, maybe we need to take a closer look. If you walk about hating where you are, you'll miss the point. Not sure what I'm trying to say, life is what you make it. Don't just bitch and moan about where your at..


-- Post From My iPhone

Doodling

So I have been starting to mess around with twitter a bit more recently, reminds me of doodling in the margins of an exercise book, which I was quite prolific at as a child, much to the dismay of many teachers. Especially maths for some reason, though I used to do calculus in Art class LOL.
Oh if only that last part was true ;-)
As though we shorten blogs to updates, a great idea. Soon we will be talking almost in thoughts, small wonder the literature world struggles these days, imagine war and peace as mix of twitter and text speak, or even the bible for that matter. Still if it gets the point across fair enough I say.
I was thinking this blog over in my head last night while trying to sleep, but I have forgotten half of what i was going to say, ah well it'll all come back at some point

Useless

I am so damn bobbins at this here blogging lark, maybe I should stop twatting around with multiple accounts and pseudonyms and just concentrate on actually expressing myself LMAO

I mean what with myspace, facebook, last fm, ilike, twitter and others my head spins around in a constant flux of despair and joy, well it does that anyway. If all my personalities and moods have their own page what chance do we have!! :-p

Trying to be more Creative

I need to find some way of exerting my creative streak, so I am just pissing around at the mo. I seem to have a block in my head, too many distractions I think, and too much housework LOL!!
So is this compatible with iWeb, just jumping in head first LOL. I'll get bored in a week, and I'm sure anyone who reads it will, I have nothing interesting to say and not a very exciting life PMSL. Just gonna moan about the missus and my job really !!