I've been looking at it all wrong, I asked myself a question that I answered wrongly. I over complicate thoughts when the simplest answer is generally the right one. Maybe the question was wrong. When did I start being so unforgiving? I hate feeling like I'm being played, and I hate doing the playing. I don't do games, life is too damn short, yet I keep on questioning everything. It is the driving force of my madness.
I am far from infallible, so it would be arrogant of me not to forgive, and I have a few people who I should forgive. I have been handed more than my fair share of chances, so the right thing is put out a hand say,
"Ah! Fuck it! Let's move passed that shit and get on and build for tomorrow."
Maybe as a man I shouldn't be so open with this, but this is real life. I'm comfortable enough to think anybody who reads this can understand where I am coming from. This isn't about getting rich quick, or some amazing holiday adventures with photos. Neither is it about music. It is just my life and my feelings as a man.
So I am gonna rise above and give people a second chance, because I know what I'd rather regret. I'd regret not giving it a chance, I am a stubborn bastard so it's hard to admit that. I think you know when something is right and when something is wrong.
I'd like to thank friends old and new for being patient with me, even the friends who where consumed in their own shit. I have time for anybody, sometimes it's about the journey. Inevitably though it's about finding the place where you feel at one with your surroundings. The journey has been full of highs and lows, but I think...mm I KNOW I am tired of running.
Life is beautiful, amazing, scary, maddening, ugly... Never let anything pass you by and appreciate it all.
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Then again I could be wrong.....
I feel the same at times - and also take note that you shouldn't hide how you feel because you are a man.
A real man is admitting how you feel - in the good and bad.
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